dissecting*memories: Happy Birthday To...

... me!!

Last night I was a little sad. Today was gona be my birthday, i was going to turn 20... And on 20 years, i was remembering very few moments of happiness, so i took a pen and the first thing that came to my hand (a handkerchief [sp??]) and started to write down this words:

Birthday Wish

I close my eyes and wish hard
Blow the candles, open my heart
I know my wish won't come true
So my best gift would be "i love you"

One more year passed by
One more tear ran dry
Two lifes, one wish
Everything for a kiss

Burning alive, screaming inside
Hurting my pride, killing my mind
It's hard to hold on but I can't go back
It's hard to stand up without taking a step

A wild dream I never gave up on
A wish for your eyes I could see
The years will pass till the days are gone
But this wish i will always keep with me

Im not asking you to make me a princess
Im asking you to give your love to me
To share all your nightmares and dreams
Let the time pass, leave the time, let it be.

BUT the night (morning lol) passed fast, and when i woke up the next day it was my birthday! the big day! what was i gona do? i had really no idea, i just wanted ONE thing more than anything on that moment: to spend it with my sister, Marisa. After lunch I called her and said i was going to pick her up at my gramma's house cause my and my mum would go to Parque das Nações, and its a very nice place to take a walk. so we went there. firt things was to go straight up to the restaurants floor cause it was already 5pm (the bust from where i live took 1.00h to get to my gramma's house, and then one more hour between talks and more bus to go to parque das nações). the only thing i could eat was a sandwish from Pans (i cant believe ive wasted 12.50€ on 3 sandwishes, 3 drinks and ships!!). then we left the shopping into the park, and walked on the river's direction. its sooo peacefull, and at the end of the afternoom its a very fresh place to be (the only bad thing is the smell coming from the river, they should take care of it soon! its not unstandable, but it completelly ruins the ambient). we took a lot of pictures

, and then walked into the gardens to take more pictures. on the returning, we walked near the bars, and there was a little shop there, selling jewlry, so i bought her a ring, and one for me, exactly the same, so we have something that conncet us hehe like a wedding ring lol on the way back she was holding me most of the time

, shes very sweet! then a little shopping inside the center, i finally got myself the bana and flapi dvd!

my mum said: "Raquel, you're going to become 20, not 12!" but i dont care...

it was my favourite tv series when i was a kid, and i deserve to have it on dvd! lol then we caught a taxi that brought us home, i had to leave her at my gramma's again