poem 04

i fill this emptiness with an attempt to survive
everything i cant live without is too painful to live with
when you close your eyes and cannot sleep only i know the reason why
when you wake from your nightmares should be mine the tears you cry
my own mistakes make me feel everyday a little less alive
life fades away every minute, every second... i feel weak

i needed to feel your love to keep me away from the sin
i needed you to blind me from temptation with your sweetness
i should have said no when there was still time
i shouldnt have crossed the damn slim line
unwanted and broken i fall from my skin
there's no turn back, in your eyes there's no forgiveness

heavy and guilty, conscience you never leave me alone
how can i survive without the light of your existence
have pity of this unblessed soul and lie
a lie isn't as hard for my heart as goodbye
don't make me live this unfair cruel life on my own
don't make me fight this unbearable absence

Rakel, 15 July 2004

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