"that's life..." - hate to hear this!

This was another sad day for me. nothing actually happened to me, but once again, that's not what hurts me most. firstly my best friend failed one of her exams, the most important one for her, she's studying hard for the second round now. if she fails again she will have to repeat the whole year with one single subject: history! ive been on my school today, one of the few good things today, and i saw my history teacher. was good to see him, he kinda gave me the strenght i need to start all over again. i thought everyone was going to shout at me after what happened, but they didnt... they were even worried. my teacher told me that next year the program will be different, and it will be much easier for the kind of student i am. he said i will love it (me, loving history!? well i do like it, but my marks are really depressing except the 17/20 i've had that fell from heaven two years ago). but the saddest thing i knew only a few hours ago. one of my cousins was pregnant. all of us knew it was a risky pregnancy but we had faith that with all the treatment it would go well this time. i always found it strange how her periods never stopped for 5 months. today we received the sad new that she was now at home, but had been in the hospital for a long time cause she lost her baby last week. if he had lived, he was going to born with no bones on his arms and one of his legs. it was the biggest dream she ever had, to be a mother. and this son was her hope. she's really down, i hope she gets through it, i know it isnt easy but shes still young and can try it again... in 6 months aparantly, though i think she should wait at least 1 year! in a way i think it was better like this, the poor child wouldnt live much longer anyway... i get a little scared cause i know this is all very dangerous for her cause shes taking the same medicin that i am, only err about 4 times more... but still if i get pregnant one day, it will be very dangerous. for me of course, i have to stop with the medication, but for the baby as well. i never wanted to have kids but when i think about things this way it makes me sad. it makes me feel usless actually.
To end the gossip for today, two little things: my friend from the casting calls me everyday. she live "near" the place where i'm going for hollidays so she might spend a week in my house, lets see =) im also going to call my sister, i want her to spend a weekend or so at my house, now that the painting is over. i have to wait for my dad to come though, someone has to bring her here and pick her up when its time to go and i cant do everything lol oh, and my neighbour here, a 13 year old girl, her parents are building her a house cause she's going to get married :s so young!!! ive heard she has a boyfriend, a serious thing... weird people!
well "that's life"...