(bad) news

how would it be like to die with 19 years old? thats the question on my head since i found out that two guys i knew, not from school, but they were on my friends group, died at the age of 19 years old, last sunday, if im not mistaken. you start to think about everything, and how life can be so short. i mean i knew those guys, they were always around my school and now... i won't ever see them again. i knew the driver better, it happened on a car accident, the driver was not drunk but he was speeding, aparantly competing with another car, and he lost total control of the car, and they hit on a wall. the driver and the passanger sitting next to him died immidiatly, on the back seat there was 3 guys: one didnt got hurt, only a few scratches, another one broke a leg and an arm but got out of the hospital to go to his friends funeral, and theres another one in critical state, hes in coma... probably won't survive. shitty life.

about school, my schedule is going to change again, i'll know the changes tomorrow. im sure it will change for worse! the new teachers (all girls) are all weird. we're probably just not used to them. some are nice, some not really but... its what we have. oh and ive heard something about the new 'school rules'. completelly pathetic, like we can't be on the windows, we can't stay in the classrooms in break-time (this when it starts raining will be sooo fun!!), we can't stay on the school front door... great, uh?

now about my heath... it would be all ok if i was not so fat right now. im putting up weight like crazy, cause aparantly im not eating what i should and as i should. i need to eat more between meals, drink more water (but not during meals or at night), eat slowly, no sugar at all... well, its kind of ok. i only think i'll be hungry all the time but thats... you know... a consequence.