bye bye

yeah people this is it! im going for two weeks, come back in the 5th september i guess. i will miss this... i'll miss alot of things even being so little time...
I just hope everything goes well. usually one or two days before i go on a big trip i start thinking about car accidents and having nightmares, it really scares me alot. just hope i can get back safe, i know this sounds odd but the road is a jungle really lol oh well i'll try to forget (as if it was possible) what i leave behind and have a little fun... bring on the beach sunny days! =)

driving and thinking

damn weird week! the driving is getting better everyday but my mind seems so be so far away! like i can't concentrate on what im doing... anyway, the classes are over for this month, and i have some more dates for the next month already, they might need to be changed cause of school. anyway, heres the dates in septemper: 7, 8 and 10 at 4pm, 13 to 17 at 4pm as well and 20 to 24 at 5pm. till then i have a two weeks break - hollidays! yay! going to my grandparents. very nice up there. and theres a new beach that we're going to this year, very clean and all... and i'll see my cousins and my family again, hopefully my little cousin if shes back from her hollidays heheh shes so sweet. sure im gonna miss home, and my pc, and my friends, everyone i leave here, but routine is f*cking boring so... roll on the hollidays! can't wait till september to go back to school! =)

a week driving!

wow! 4 days. 4 classes. it's been a bit crazy. i never has a car on my hands before so first time i did, i didn't even know how to control it, i didnt realize the space it takes on the road, its weird at first. then you get used to it. its a little hard to think of doing all moves at the same time, and never take your eyes off the road, but well i only have 4 classes yet, alot to learn!... so this week i had: 10th Aug at 18.00h, 11th Aug at 16.00h, 12th Aug at 16.00h and 13th Aug at 17.00h. And next week: 16th Aug at 16.00h, 17th Aug at 18.00h and 18th Aug at 16.00h.

another thought

You don't love me but you still want me
I dont hate you, i always loved you
I can wait
watch my neverending patience!
test it.
try it.
you can do anything
it wont hurt me anymore
all that matters now is you
what and how you feel
My body is empty
You stole my soul
You destroyed my heart
Now its you that i live for

(again... uh!?)

only a thought

Sitting here, another night
The lights off, the candles burning
The flames on my heart
The shadows on the wall screaming
I hear the wind whispering
Cold memories under the door
The door you'll never walk through
To take away my fears with you
Bring me the life i've lost
On the tear you made me cry
Cause one thing you can't deny
You're the one who hurt me most

(what the heck was i thinking!?)

another poem

Resting my head full of fears
My restless mind whimpers
My mouth softly whispers
Words you won't ever hear

The moonlight on my face
Hides the shadows of the fears
Lights the darkness of this place
Erases the memories of the years

Your name echoes in that dim light
For a moment the pain is gone
For a minute the peace takes over
For a second... you were here

My heart cries your name all night
This pillow is dry again in the morning
I wonder which name were you calling
can you still hear my voice?

(hmm maybe this was not as subtle as i wanted it to be... damn words!)

I hate

I hate when i look and i don't see you there
I hate when the phone rings and i know it's not you
I hate to go out and don't find you
I hate to think about nothing else but you
I hate to only think about you
I hate to cry for you
I hate to not know how you are
I hate to think you might be with someone else
I hate to think you might be someone else's arms... someone that doesnt love you as much as i do
I hate to have something else to do just not to think about you all the time
I hate when you don't hold me
I hate when my skin doesnt touch yours
I hate to look at you knowing i cannot kiss you
I hate to hear our song
I hate when you talk to me like we have never been 'us'
I hate to think that you don't want me like 'the one'
I hate when you treat me like just another friend
I hate my lonely nights
I hate my empty bed
I hate to know that i won't ever have you
I hate to be afraid that you forget me
I hate to think that you already did

(unknown author. adapted to english by me, with a few little changes so i can relate it to myself better.)

the big day: tomorrow

oh i can't wait! tomorrow is finnaly the big day! the first day i will ever put my hads on a car to drive it! attention people: no one on the streets tomorrow at 18:00 please! this might be cathastrophic! Me, driving a car, raining, lightening, in the middle of a storm can't be a good combination. well at least the monitor is nice, lets see if she isn't in a bad day and completes this perfect scenary. updates tomorrow if im still alive after this first lesson.

last movies i've watched

Shrek 2

Quite funny lol though i haven't watched the fist one but the story is understandable. i had a laugh. and a bigger one when i got told the cat's voice on the english version is made by Antonio Banderas LOL that guy!! haha very funny movie, good sound track (i can't take accidentaly in love off my head for days lol) and specially very funny caracthers, the cat just cracks me up! lol and i hope they live happy ever after :p

I, Robot

wow, im gonna have nightmares about robots for the next weeks lol very interesting though. i have to admit i never liked this kind of movie but its disturbing, the way i like them =) made me jump a couple of times and thats a good sign too heheh and of course will smith is... that thing, you know lol makes me smile ony looking at him :) made me wonder where and how i will be on 2035, i will be 51 - thats scary! even more scary that the possibily of robots having emotions! lol

links and emails

recently i noticed that there is a few new options for who wants to share big files with their friends, send large emails... heres a few:
. YouSendIt: thats my choice! not actually an email account but you upload a file up to 1GB and it stays on their server for 7 days giving a link for it to the email you send it to. shame its only 7 days, but still good.
. Walla me!: Free 1GB email account.
. Rediffmail: Free 1GB email account.
. Gmail: by Google. Free 1GB email account.

and now here's some cool links:
. The Phone: If someone understands this please explain me!? lol
. DENJIN.108: take a look to the galleries. amazing!
. UFOPhotographs: unreal. literally lol
. abc...what?: The World's Longest Alphabetical Email Adress - no thanks lol
. SLEEVES: Original Tatoo'd clothing - you will love this!

*this is my 100th post here! YAY*

exam day

exam day
wow finally got trough it. i was extremelly nervous, and honestly i think i was not ready! i mean i know most things but certain details were failing. So there i was at 7am (the exam was going to be at 8.30am but i didnt know exactly where it was so i arrived ealy), and after waiting a loong time, it was 8.45am we all got in the room and started 5 minutes later. my hands were shaking and the only thing i could think of was the 35 minutes i had to finish. finished it in 15 min lol and reviwed it like 100 times. i can say it was easy but either i had stupid easy question as the other tricky ones grrrrr so at the end we had to wait another 15 minutes to know the results. i passed but at the edge of failing. i had 3 wrong questions out of 30. damn, i wanted to do better, i know i could! its so annoying!! but well at least i don't have to go trough everything all over again. now its hollidays and no worring about anything (except the 4 driving classes before i go to Pombal).

a very sweet poem

Someday...

Our ships are moored
in opposite seas;
destiny brought us together
but keeps us apart.
We just can't be--
you and me.
There are a million
miles between us.
Obligations hold us at bay.
We search in the dark
for each other,
but so many boundaries
block the way.
Yet I love you no less
than if you were here.
And I promise that my
affection will not grow weary.
I'll take you with me
all of my days,
with all the love
a heart can carry.
And I'll hope with
a smile and heavy tears
that the same thing
that keeps us apart,
will bring us together
in the coming years.
I have faith that
someday we'll be--
you and me.

as everything, hard-drives change

ok, ok... i know i promised to myself that i wouldnt post anything until my exam, but this defenatly deserves a look! this huge thing on the image on the left is an ancient room-sized hard drive being serviced by a guy in a clean-room bunny-suit. The best part is that this thing and a million of its brothers put together probably had a lower capacity than a simple disk (forget cds!)here's a link to a larger image, and next time you get angry at your pc, thank God about technology development! lol Link