to "you"

It hurts to look at myself in the mirror everyday and see what you turned me into, cause everytime i look, i only see you, your shadow... everything you left in me, tattooed in my soul. Everywhere i look, you are there. All the time. And ironicaly, i've become you. My sunshine left me in the dark, I cannot see without the light of your smile. Your eternal smile on a sunny afternoon, craved in my heart... i hope you at least realise it. i hope you at least rmember it. i hope you at least... fade away from my heart as you faded away from my life. I love you. I hate you. I go crazy about you. I just can't ignore you. That's why I don't understand you. Thats why you left, quietly, slowly... but I can't. I never will. You will never leave this place.

sidenote: have you ever felt like wanting to help/talk to someone you'r supposed to hate? isnt it a weird feeling? damn is!

It's not even on my way, but I wanted to think on how
It felt to walk this road, all years before