"tell yourself a hundred times that forever starts today"
everyone asks me "if you are portuguese why is your bog mostly written in english?". i say its not only my blog - its everything i do online and everything i have a chance to. i don't know how this passion for the language started (hell i dont know why am i talking about it) and i am aware that i am not perfect at it, but i think i can't live without it anymore. it's not that i don't like my own language but i personaly think everything sounds much better in english.. maybe i was influenciated by the media.. maybe because its the "universal language".. i think it started with the music. i listened to songs and i wanted to know what the lyrics meant, what did they talked about.. and i still wonder how some people dont like it/try to learn it.. cause its everywhere you know!?.. anyways.. i don't know why im talking about this. its past 5am. maybe im just bored. maybe im too tired and am in a state worse than drunk. its a scape i guess. thought about writting about how great school is going for me, but my own happiness makes me sick sometimes - its superficial. all "for the picture" kind of life. ok so school is going well. i made 4 tests so far (each corresponds to one unit) and i passed all of them. im happy and surprised for that, cause unlike other people say, i find it harder to study at night. its our own responsability. they just provide us material to study and make the tests, we have to study on out own. its "easier" if you think on the actuall test you wont have to talk about everything on the unit, but that doesnt mean you dont have to study everything, so it doesnt make it any easier. however, this should be making me happy, and it does for a few hours, but then its all back, im still the same anti-social "miserable fuck" (too much dav ford latelly i know). hmm gonna go to bed i guess, cry myself to sleep watching the sunrise i guess *yawn* maybe read alittle first. nite all (whoever reads this shit!? *rollseyes*)
everyone asks me "if you are portuguese why is your bog mostly written in english?". i say its not only my blog - its everything i do online and everything i have a chance to. i don't know how this passion for the language started (hell i dont know why am i talking about it) and i am aware that i am not perfect at it, but i think i can't live without it anymore. it's not that i don't like my own language but i personaly think everything sounds much better in english.. maybe i was influenciated by the media.. maybe because its the "universal language".. i think it started with the music. i listened to songs and i wanted to know what the lyrics meant, what did they talked about.. and i still wonder how some people dont like it/try to learn it.. cause its everywhere you know!?.. anyways.. i don't know why im talking about this. its past 5am. maybe im just bored. maybe im too tired and am in a state worse than drunk. its a scape i guess. thought about writting about how great school is going for me, but my own happiness makes me sick sometimes - its superficial. all "for the picture" kind of life. ok so school is going well. i made 4 tests so far (each corresponds to one unit) and i passed all of them. im happy and surprised for that, cause unlike other people say, i find it harder to study at night. its our own responsability. they just provide us material to study and make the tests, we have to study on out own. its "easier" if you think on the actuall test you wont have to talk about everything on the unit, but that doesnt mean you dont have to study everything, so it doesnt make it any easier. however, this should be making me happy, and it does for a few hours, but then its all back, im still the same anti-social "miserable fuck" (too much dav ford latelly i know). hmm gonna go to bed i guess, cry myself to sleep watching the sunrise i guess *yawn* maybe read alittle first. nite all (whoever reads this shit!? *rollseyes*)
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